step down~~

ti..ta..ti..ta..ti..ta.. counting down the days to step down this position. I'm not so sure whether this decision is correct or not. But what i know is this situation and management style can't be improve any further as long as they remain the same management style. About 2 more weeks, i have to notify the Head about this matter. I'm sure things will not go smoothly as i think, a lot of things need to be done before letting me go. At least i have to finish what i suppose to do first and i have to suggest another victim to replace me to continue those annoying and useless work. Again, i have to request to change my current status. Everything will be jumble up. sigh~~~

New update! This morning they just mentioned about to apply for the ISO. OMG, are you kidding me? Such a management style in this place wanna apply for ISO. If they really got the ISO, which means ISO doesn't mean anything at all. Any organization can easily get it without really achieve the initial requirement. Ridiculous~

diet diet~~

diet, diet, diet~~~ always the most difficult task that i can achieve in my life. Eat or skip meal, the result seem no much different. In contrast, i still keep gaining weight. Really fed up~sigh~is there anyway that girl always can maintain their weight or diet in a more comfortable way and have immediate effect. You may think "OMG, such a lazy girl". Ya, i admit i am a lazy girl... a very very lazy girl. But i'm thinking to lose weight.... is there any good idea? let's share it........

Confusion day

Another Sunday, God knows since when i just don't like Sunday. It makes me feel lonely. I spent my time by watching drama and drama.... Till i tired and sick with dramas. Today my confusion started with -->Do i ever think that why am i here now? Where should i go? Do i belong to here? Otherwise where should i go or where can i go? Going back to sibu? Yeah... this is what i have been thinking about. But what i can do if go back to sibu? No answer. Am i doing what i'm really interested in now? study and teaching.... I'm sure what i'm doing now is never my interest. But i have to continue until i found my interest. Ya, what is my ambition? I'm not really sure. I just want my family and i just want my parent to be happy. I don't really know what i want to be or what i want to do. One thing that i'm pretty sure now at this moment is i don't want to stay here anymore. i don't care about my study anymore. i just can't afford all this anymore. No one understand me, no one know what happen to me. I just live all by my own. No one care about me. I don't want this kind of life anymore. What can i do? Anyway for me to escape from all this?

Good news...

So good to have 3 days rest after a long restless working days. I spent 2 days at home to watch my favourite korean dramas. My life and my brain is so peaceful in this 2 days. Just now my sister told me a good new. My second brother gonna marry soon in this year. Yeah, i know my parents is very very happy now cause they have been waiting this for quite long time. O, i just can't wait to fly home immediately and join them. My sister told me probably the wedding will be on this coming early December. But before that, next month on 18 they will exchange their engagement ring. Then they will only decide and confirm the actual wedding date. There was a new family member, after my sister gave birth her baby (my niece) last two years. Soon there will be another new member in my family--my future sister-in-law. Am i call it right? Hahaha... feel really great.....