Final Week in August!

Time flies and left us far behind. Back on sunday, i was still worry about my exam and classes. A restless sunday which end up with just 2 hours sleeping. But at least luck always at my side, i got more exam source and tips from mei yoon during the office hours. There are 2 parts in the exam. The first part was fine but i totally have no idea with the 2nd part. It is too confusing so end up i just wrote whatever i know. Hope the result will not be too bad.

After a long and tiring monday, i have another few more restless and terrible days. Everything was just mess up, no matter how hard you have tried to work on it and fix it. People always try to put the spot light on your weak point. They will never appreciate what you have done. I still wondering why people so used to angry and scolding others. Don't they feel uncomfortable when facing with the same people again next time. Do they actually feel sorry about it? How about if the person confront. It's only gonna makes thing worse. I think i have enough with the apologies and appreciation to those people. Only one word can describe them "FAKE". Never want to learn, never want to change, good in ordering people, inefficient in conveying message from top to bottom, last minute work. Rush and rush, Hurry and hurry, Enough, enough, totally enough... i'm totally lost.

Therefore a feeling in deep of me has getting stronger and stronger. It's time... It's time...
Counting down... 4, 3, 2,1... RELEASE, FREEDOM....(in dream)

r3stle33 day

Sunday always a good day and rest day for most of the poeple but except me especially after i became a lecture in this university. Ever since that i almost never enjoy most of my "Sundays". Everytimes i have to do a lot of preparation for coming days. Sunday should be a rest day, a day for people going to church to worship god. God knows i have missed how many church worship session. I ever think that it just an excuse, may be i'm not working hard enough. This is so call "LIFE". ha... my slogan always "LIFE IS TOUGH".

Today i have been staying at home to do my revision for the whole day but i still not manage to finish everything as i expected earlier. I tried to call my boss to ask for leave tomorrow but rejected by him due to it is prohibited to cancel class last minute. Therefore he suggested to give quiz or discussion to students. OMG, what can i do now. I feel really sorry to the students and unprofessional. May be i really not suitable or not ready to be a lecturer yet. May be it is time for me to think about my career. Am i going to continue this path or try out some other challenge. OMG, i'm totally lost and mess up.

first blog in the year!

I have been stop blogging for quite sometimes. If not mistaken it's nearly a year never update my blog due to the increasing workload. After i read sophea's blog today, i feel like it's time for me to start back my blog. I have plenty of things want to write it down, just simply don't know where to start.
Ok, let's start with how am i feeling now. I'm feeling really sick and tension cos there r so many things are pending and not getting ready yet. Especially my master class, it almost drive me crazy. One of my mid term exam is on this coming monday but i have not even start reading a single word yet. Besides that, i also need to prepare my lecture for monday classes. Monday, monday, monday......... another busy and restless day. I'm gonna have class from 9am to 4pm without any break in between. After that i have to rush and attend my mid term test in UM at 6pm. ~sigh~ all of this is just pain in the ass....Hope i can really concentrate on my study tomorrow. God bless me....